Lucy Letby: The murderous nurse wrote notes confessing ‘I’m bad, I did this’ after murdering babies

Lucy Letby wrote a “confession” in which she described herself as a “terribly evil person” and said, “I DID THAT.”

The note was discovered by police in her diary when she searched her home after her arrest.

On the green Post-it found in a journal in her bedroom in 2016, she wrote: “I killed her on purpose because I’m not good enough.” I’ll never have children or get married or know what it’s like to have a family.’

Other strange and messy writings were also recovered from her purse and garage.

She insisted the green slip was not proof that she killed and harmed the children, but that she wrote it when she was having “mental health issues” because she thought she was making mistakes at work and can inadvertently hurt the babies.

But the jury dismissed their claims, agreeing with the prosecution that it should be read “literally.”

Last night, handwriting expert Adam Brand, who analyzed Letby’s notes for the Mail, said her writing style was evidence of a “manipulative and dishonest” person.

Nurse Lucy Letby wrote a “confession” in a series of handwritten notes found after a killing spree, describing herself as a “terribly bad person”.

In a ‘confession’ in which she described herself as a ‘horrible person’ before writing, ‘I AM EVIL I DID THIS’ (pictured)

In other notes seized by police, Letby had written, “Hate my life,” “I can’t do it anymore,” and “HELP.”

Handwriting expert Adam Brand, who analyzed Letby’s notes for the Mail, said her writing style was evidence of a “manipulative and dishonest” person. In it, he breaks down what her writing represents

However, other characteristics of her handwriting suggested she could be “charming” and “friendly” at the same time, he said.

Mr Brand said Letby was an intriguing case because her writing style displayed traits of antisocial behavior disorder – impulsiveness, dishonesty, rejection of discipline and manipulation – while showing her ability to “fit in” with society and friends to find.

He said the handwriting in Letby’s 2016 diary, which was seized by police, was ordered and appears to have been written by someone in control. But it was in stark contrast to the other colored notes, all of which were shown to the jury, which appeared far more chaotic and restless.

“Her lyrics show that she’s a charming person who can commit some terrible acts,” he said.

Mr Brand compared Letby to Jeffrey Dahmer, the US serial killer who spent 13 years murdering and dismembering 17 men in Milwaukee, USA.

“He’s been described as a built-in antisocial and that’s how I see her, too,” he said. “She is someone who can be very kind at times, manipulative, secretive and cold at times.”

Mr. Brand pointed out several “faults” in her handwriting style.

The way she had written HATE, PANIC, FEAR, LOST on the green note “I’m Evil” could be seen as attention seeking. That indicated she wanted to be listened to and not ignored, he said.

While the “continuous loops” on the yellow slip and the repetition of her name or signature on the white A4 slip showed she was possessed, Mr Brand said.

The way her writing doesn’t slant one way or the other—it doesn’t slant right or left all the time, but exhibits a different slant—and sometimes “suddenly” changes direction mid-word is highly unusual and demonstrative She suffered from “terrible” mood swings and struggled to fit into a team, Mr Brand said.

Last night, handwriting expert Adam Brand, who analyzed Letby’s notes for the Mail, said her writing style was evidence of a “manipulative and dishonest” person

He said the handwriting in Letby’s 2016 diary, which was seized by police, was ordered and appears to have been written by someone in control.

Mr Brand compared Letby to Jeffrey Dahmer, the US serial killer who spent 13 years murdering and dismembering 17 men in Milwaukee, USA.

Police recovered a number of scribbled notes Letby had written during her killing spree

On other pieces of paper she wrote: “I can’t do it anymore” and “Everything can be managed.”

“Mood swings are shown by sudden changes in inclination, you switch from the left to the right inclination,” said Mr. Brand.

“It’s a definite change of mood, you can feel that change of mood, it’s very rapid when it’s within a word itself.”

The lack of consistency in the height of her letters also suggested she has self-esteem issues, while “hooks” at the beginning of vowels are a symbol of evasive maneuvers, Mr Brand said.

Shaded boxes and grid scribbles also signaled suppressed anger and that she felt trapped, he added. The anger can also be seen in the slashes she used instead of dots as “the dot on her i,” he said.

While the “overlapping” of words and phrases symbolized an inability to plan or think clearly, Mr Brand added.

Referring to the back of one of the yellow bills, Mr Brand said: “If you look at the scribbling that’s going on there, it’s quite remarkable.” Incredibly heavy, you see the anger, the fear, the stress. Another thing you see is the constant circling — there’s a compulsion to writing, that compulsion that you see on another sheet of paper that has her name written all over it all the time.

“It’s full of repetition and compulsion, which means there’s some glitches.”

“The trapped feeling of the squares, the fear of it, the constraint of the circles, the fact that the lines overlap, very unclear thinking.” No border so you can see this person is pushy, you don’t even have to look at the Looking at content, graphically, you hit these things, it’s like, “There’s trouble here.”

Referring to Letby’s notes, Mr Brand added, “Her lyrics show that she is a charming person who can commit some horrific acts.”

Mr Brand compared Letby to Jeffrey Dahmer, the US serial killer who spent 13 years murdering and dismembering 17 men in Milwaukee, USA

Other characteristics of her handwriting style indicated she had dishonest personality traits, Mr Brand said. “The other problem that comes out clearly is the fact that their lyrics are dishonest,” he added. “Letters that look like other letters, and missing letters in the words themselves.” “b” that have an open bottom and look more like “h” — that’s the symbolism, it says, “I can’t care.” .”

“Then there are small, tiny movements that are slightly disconcerting. Such as a “shark tooth” that occurs when you have an “m” whose last dash is a “C” shape, meaning someone capable of manipulating, abusing, and taking advantage of people. The other is known as “spoon”, which is again an ability to manipulate and take advantage of people.

“Their forms of connection — how you connect letters together — are all so inconsistent.”

“Lettby’s thread or the way she puts letters together suggests cunning, while the angle of her writing suggests someone who could be cold and stubborn,” added Mr. Brand.

The arcade or bridge of her letters, for example the way she writes an “m,” also indicates secrecy or intrigue, he said.

But the “garlands” or “shells” of her handwriting found in the “ws” and “ls” suggested she could be both lazy and kind, he added.

“Here we have someone who is sometimes very friendly, attracting people and cooperative, but also sometimes scheming, mysterious, sometimes very cold and sometimes quite stubborn,” said Mr. Brand.