Trinny Woodall says she was kicked out of a “terrible” first rehab for looking at porn – but eventually stopped taking drugs by selling her stuff to pay for treatment before going to a rehab house Earned £8.00 an hour

Trinny Woodall admits her first stay in rehab ended early after she was caught watching a pornographic video with other residents.

The TV stylist was in her 20s and addicted to drugs when she first sought inpatient treatment.

But she claims it was a painful introduction to inpatient therapy because of the confrontational approach and ended sooner than expected when she was ordered to leave to watch an X-rated film.

In an appearance on Steven Bartlett’s Diary Of A CEO podcast, Woodall, now 59 and sober for more than 30 years, said: “It was funny, but not funny in the end.” It was a terrible rehab.

“Rehab facilities are very different these days, but it was a very, very shameful place.” It would now be closed. It didn’t have a very good way of dealing with things.

Opening: Trinny Woodall admits her first stay in rehab ended early after she was caught watching a pornographic video with other residents

Old times: The TV stylist was in her 20s and addicted to drugs when she first entered residential treatment (pictured right in 1984, when she was 20).

“In this whole scenario, you definitely feel like you’re being thrown in with people you don’t know and that your life is being exposed.” It was a time when you were writing your life story.

“They did this stuff where they got 20 people in a room criticizing how bad your life was and judging you for it.” Looking back, this was the only way rehab facilities worked in the UK .

“So when you brought up this porn movie, I felt like, let’s do something fun because we have so damn much time here, and that backfired and I got kicked out.”

Outwardly, Woodall gave the impression of success in her twenties, but her personal life was marred by an addiction that she believed stemmed from a lack of self-confidence.

She said: “Things happen in your life that begin to refine you and define who you will be.” I went through periods in my late teens and early twenties where I took drugs because I was dealing with that who I was, wasn’t satisfied and didn’t know who I was.

“Sometimes people turn to drugs because they don’t know who they are. They have an internal lack of confidence, and I definitely had an internal lack of self-confidence.”

After a series of rehab stints, she got clean again in her late twenties, a time that she admits was a catalyst for significant change – both personally and professionally.

“When I got clean when I was 26 or 27, that was the big start of a change in my life,” she said. “I was so relieved that my twenties were over, so relieved. “That was a big moment for me, figuring out who I was – that was probably the first moment.”

Looking back: The TV stylist recalled the incident during an appearance on Steven Bartlett’s Diary Of A CEO podcast, which can be seen on YouTube

Revelation: After a series of rehab stints, she got clean again in her late twenties, a time she admits was the catalyst for significant change

But the TV personality’s treatment and early recovery were marred by tragedy.

She said: “I had three really good friends and we were all out for a night and I said we should make a pact and go to rehab tomorrow.” Two of them had been and one of them had been never been.

“The next morning I woke up and still had that feeling, which is rare, so I called a therapist I knew and said I had to go, but I have a window of time so small that I couldn’t “literally have to do” in the next two hours because I’m afraid I’ll change my mind. So he put me up somewhere and I stayed for five months and sold what I had to pay for it.’

She added: “Some very tragic things happened during that time and one of the people died and then I went into a hostel in Weston-super-Mare for seven months where you live on, so to speak, £8 to £10 a year.” Week, it pays for your dicks, and I worked in a retirement home.

“I came back to London a completely different person, then the following year another friend died, and in another two years they all died.”

Emotional: Woodall also spoke about her ex-husband’s suicide, saying it was hard to understand how someone so concerned about the well-being of his children would end her life

Shocking: The presenter said she was only able to mourn Johnny Elichaoff six months ago – eight years after his death – when her daughter Lyla left the house

Woodall also addressed her ex-husband’s suicide, saying it was hard to understand how someone who was so concerned about the well-being of his children could convince himself that they would be better off without him.

The beauty entrepreneur and television host said she was only able to mourn Johnny Elichaoff six months ago – eight years after his death – when her daughter Lyla walked out of the house, leaving her alone.

Johnny, who also had a son Zak from a previous relationship, took his own life in 2014 at the age of 55.

Although he was known to have suffered a series of failed oil investments before his death, Woodall said he experienced such turmoil that he was convinced his children would be better off without him – despite his hypervigilance over their well-being.

The former What Not To Wear presenter, whose business with Trinny London is worth £180million, told Diary on a CEO podcast on Monday: “Johnny was extremely vigilant with his children because he was in the Israeli army and was a medic.”

Hard to process: Woodall said he is going through such turmoil that he believes his children would be better off without him – despite his hypervigilance over their well-being

Tragic: Johnny, who also had a son Zak from a previous relationship, took his own life in 2014 at the age of 55

There she is: Woodall made an appearance on Tuesday’s edition of This Morning, where she promoted her new book

“And it left him with post-traumatic stress disorder, which wasn’t diagnosed until about 20 years later.”

“But one of the things is also hypervigilance towards his children, which is why he was always so concerned about their well-being.”

“When you’re so worried about your children, you have this thing in your brain where you go to convince yourself that the best thing for your children, who you love deeply, is for you to be. “ no longer in your life?

“And that’s something that’s so important, that we can help people who end up in this situation – so that they don’t end up in the latter part of this situation.”

“It’s about understanding what you’re supposed to recognize, and it’s very difficult to recognize.” I didn’t recognize it. There were a lot of details that could have really upset me and things that were done wrong. But somehow you have to let go.

“You have to work through these phases and not get stuck in something that consumes you.”

She added: “Any person who has had someone commit suicide will at some point ask themselves, ‘Could I have done anything to prevent the suicide?’

All mine: The TV stylist posed backstage at the ITV studios with the self-help book titled ‘Fear Less’

Let’s talk: She chatted to This Morning presenters Holly Willoughby and Dermot O’Leary about her new project